Four-Letter-Love
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Missing
I'm missing my home town
I'm missing normalcy
I'm missing having a room of my own
A bed of my own with favourite sheets
I'm nostalgic
All of the sudden
Listening to contemplative music
And feeling it
All of the sudden
Wanting
Clarity
Clear, crisp and beautiful clarity
Where are you, decisions?
And when will I know?
Come and get me
You know where to find me
I'm right here
I haven't gone anywhere yet ¶ 3:07 PM 0 Comments
I'm missing normalcy
I'm missing having a room of my own
A bed of my own with favourite sheets
I'm nostalgic
All of the sudden
Listening to contemplative music
And feeling it
All of the sudden
Wanting
Clarity
Clear, crisp and beautiful clarity
Where are you, decisions?
And when will I know?
Come and get me
You know where to find me
I'm right here
I haven't gone anywhere yet ¶ 3:07 PM 0 Comments
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Thursday, April 7, 2011
26 things you probably don't know about me
Seeing as I'm 26, I thought I'd do a very blogger-type thing and compile a list of 26 things. Here it is:
1. I used to be the fastest sprinter in my class
2. I like odd numbers. So much so that I choose all my fruit and veggies in odd number configurations
3. I desperately want to have kids
4. I have dreams of becoming famous and sometimes think of what I'd answer to interview questions.
5. I have weird instant connections when it comes to memories.
6. I love reading but if a book doesn't catch my interest I'll usually not finish it
7. I've got a picture in my head of the perfect life I want to lead but unfortunately I'm not leading it now
8. I'm not a morning person - at all
9. I'm a big thinker
10. I hate hospitals and anything medical
11. I've never broken a bone
12. I've only been stung by a bee once
13. Coffee has a big and immediate impact on me. Usually it makes me feel more (if that makes any sense)
14. I feel physically weak when I hear people talk about pain, especially anything childbirth related
15. I hold my pen the wrong way. (Each year in primary school the new teacher would try to get me to correct it, but they never succeeded)
16: I have a red birthmark on my left arm shaped like a butterfly
17. Passionfruit is my favourite fruit.
18. I find it really soothing to be up late at night when everyone else is sleeping
19. I love cooking but hate baking
20. I'm idealistic
21. I'm a big believer in 'making things special' Birthdays, special occasions, etc
22. I love colour - the more, the better
23. I like to make things, but for some reason it doesn't often happen these days
24. Food is very important to me. If I don't eat proper meals I feel off balance
25. One day I want to get laser eye surgery
26. I'm terrible at directions ¶ 11:12 PM 1 Comments
1. I used to be the fastest sprinter in my class
2. I like odd numbers. So much so that I choose all my fruit and veggies in odd number configurations
3. I desperately want to have kids
4. I have dreams of becoming famous and sometimes think of what I'd answer to interview questions.
5. I have weird instant connections when it comes to memories.
6. I love reading but if a book doesn't catch my interest I'll usually not finish it
7. I've got a picture in my head of the perfect life I want to lead but unfortunately I'm not leading it now
8. I'm not a morning person - at all
9. I'm a big thinker
10. I hate hospitals and anything medical
11. I've never broken a bone
12. I've only been stung by a bee once
13. Coffee has a big and immediate impact on me. Usually it makes me feel more (if that makes any sense)
14. I feel physically weak when I hear people talk about pain, especially anything childbirth related
15. I hold my pen the wrong way. (Each year in primary school the new teacher would try to get me to correct it, but they never succeeded)
16: I have a red birthmark on my left arm shaped like a butterfly
17. Passionfruit is my favourite fruit.
18. I find it really soothing to be up late at night when everyone else is sleeping
19. I love cooking but hate baking
20. I'm idealistic
21. I'm a big believer in 'making things special' Birthdays, special occasions, etc
22. I love colour - the more, the better
23. I like to make things, but for some reason it doesn't often happen these days
24. Food is very important to me. If I don't eat proper meals I feel off balance
25. One day I want to get laser eye surgery
26. I'm terrible at directions ¶ 11:12 PM 1 Comments
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Pro-cras-tin-ation
I need to do the dishes
And the laundry
And the ironing
But all that can wait till tomorrow
I need to pick up my dry cleaning
Go grocery shopping
Visit my friend
But that can also wait
- till tomorrow
I need to sweep the floor
Mend that button
Change the linen
Wash my hair
But tomorrow is called tomorrow for a reason, right?
I need to cook dinner
Change into something decent
Put on makeup
And leave the house
I need to get up off this chair
Can that wait till tomorrow too?
Maybe not ¶ 8:18 PM 0 Comments
And the laundry
And the ironing
But all that can wait till tomorrow
I need to pick up my dry cleaning
Go grocery shopping
Visit my friend
But that can also wait
- till tomorrow
I need to sweep the floor
Mend that button
Change the linen
Wash my hair
But tomorrow is called tomorrow for a reason, right?
I need to cook dinner
Change into something decent
Put on makeup
And leave the house
I need to get up off this chair
Can that wait till tomorrow too?
Maybe not ¶ 8:18 PM 0 Comments
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
How to nurse a broken heart
Cry. Curl up into a ball and want to die. Get up and eat all the chocolate in the house. Go for a walk and listen to melodic music. Look up at the trees, the houses, and wonder how everything can stay the same when so much inside you is changing. Go to the beach. Walk slowly down the board-walk pondering the life of seagulls. Try not to stare at the couples holding hands. Stare anyway. Remind yourself that there is someone for everyone in this world. Bite your lip and try not to cry. Go home. Eat more chocolate. Take a long, hot shower. Stay under the stream of water until you turn into a prune. Put on all the moisturizers you can find, and your favourite pair of undies. Watch bad TV. Go to sleep. Curl up into a ball and cry. ¶ 10:01 PM 2 Comments
Cry. Curl up into a ball and want to die. Get up and eat all the chocolate in the house. Go for a walk and listen to melodic music. Look up at the trees, the houses, and wonder how everything can stay the same when so much inside you is changing. Go to the beach. Walk slowly down the board-walk pondering the life of seagulls. Try not to stare at the couples holding hands. Stare anyway. Remind yourself that there is someone for everyone in this world. Bite your lip and try not to cry. Go home. Eat more chocolate. Take a long, hot shower. Stay under the stream of water until you turn into a prune. Put on all the moisturizers you can find, and your favourite pair of undies. Watch bad TV. Go to sleep. Curl up into a ball and cry. ¶ 10:01 PM 2 Comments
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Thursday, December 30, 2010
I should be in la-la land now
(Image via a-lil-whimsy.com)
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(Image via a-lil-whimsy.com)
I want to be sleeping now.
I want to be curled up under the covers with my book
and the glow of the lamp beside me.
But going to sleep involves several things and frankly,
I'd rather sit and type nonsensical babble then
Put. Myself. To. Bed.
Put. Myself. To. Bed.
I hope I dream tonight.
I always have very entertaining dreams that tend to surprise me
in a where-did-that-come-from kinda way. Sleep is a blessing.
Ok, enough mindless chatter.
Good night, world.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
What's so tempting about wet cement?
Is it the fact that it's there, it's wet, and we can't resist dragging a stick through it? Or is it more about the fact that we know when it dries we have made a mark that will last forever?
I think we all have the desire to make something of ourselves. To etch our names into cement. We all want to make an impression, leave a mark.
Making a mark on the world is something I think about a lot. I'm definitely one of those people that wants to get my ideas out there, to create some sort of change or positive impact.
Do you ever think about it? If you could change anything in the world or make an impact in a certain area, what would it be? ¶ 10:51 PM 0 Comments
I think we all have the desire to make something of ourselves. To etch our names into cement. We all want to make an impression, leave a mark.
Making a mark on the world is something I think about a lot. I'm definitely one of those people that wants to get my ideas out there, to create some sort of change or positive impact.
Do you ever think about it? If you could change anything in the world or make an impact in a certain area, what would it be? ¶ 10:51 PM 0 Comments
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Uninspired
I've been quite uninspired lately. Haven't done something creative in what feels like ages. Ideally I'd love to be making stuff every day. Doing some kind of creative hands-on craft. But I'm not. I know I could be if I really pushed myself but I always feel like being creative should come from within.
Sometimes I wish I had a studio. A room dedicated to creating cool stuff. Where everything is set up and ready. A room that gets you in the mood just by stepping into it.
Sounds lovely, right? ¶ 10:05 PM 2 Comments
Sometimes I wish I had a studio. A room dedicated to creating cool stuff. Where everything is set up and ready. A room that gets you in the mood just by stepping into it.
Sounds lovely, right? ¶ 10:05 PM 2 Comments
Thursday, December 9, 2010
A rose
Took this photo a couple of months ago. I like how there's just one rose peeking through. Oh, and what a great picket fence.
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Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Show me my destiny
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(image via toothpastefordinner.com)
Wouldn't it be great to see into the future?
I'm thinking yes on one hand and no on the other. Knowing where life will take us eliminates any element of surprise - good and bad. Yes, it would be great to see a bright, happy, positive future ahead of us, but seeing into the future would also mean seeing stuff that isn't so positive. Kind of like the difference between falling and breaking our leg or knowing we were going to fall and bracing ourselves for the pain way before it even happens. I think life would become boring and routine if we knew what was ahead of us at all times. It would probably feel like we have no free choice left to decide our own fate. Then again seeing into the future would also mean knowing that our current predicament will not last forever. There will be a change. Somewhere, somehow, things will shift. Nothing is forever.
At the moment I'd like a glimpse into the future to see when and how I'll find a job. I'd love to know when the end of this crazy job hunt will be.
That, and a few other things about my life too.
But for now I gotta live with the uncertainty of not knowing.
Such is life.
Friday, November 26, 2010
Music
There are some songs that resonate so strongly with me that I listen to them compulsively. Great music is like that - it transports you and makes you feel emotional.
Music is so amazingly rich.
It's really hard to imagine life without it. ¶ 7:50 PM 0 Comments
Music is so amazingly rich.
It's really hard to imagine life without it. ¶ 7:50 PM 0 Comments
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Habit Changing
It's time for some habit changing.
Habits are hard to change. They are comfortable, comforting, reassuring and easy. They are the things we fall into by default. Because we're in the habit of doing so.
I've come to realise that I have some bad habits, habits I'd like to change.
So I've decided to make it public and write about them here.
Habit #1: Eating the wrong thing at the wrong time
It doesn't feel good to eat food you don't even want at times you don't even want or appreciate it. From now on I've decided to be a more mindful eater. Not to eat just because it's there. Or I'm lazy or tired or sad or bored. Food should be treated as something you turn to when hungry. When your body needs it. Eating the wrong thing at the wrong time has resulted in me putting on weight and not fitting into my clothes properly. This must stop.
Habit #2: Not making exercise a priority
The nature of priorities is that they are first on your list. They are the most important. Right now exercise isn't even on my list. This habit kinds of ties in with the first one because when I'm exercising regularly I'm automatically more of a mindful eater and feel much better in my clothes. Making exercise a priority means making it fun and making it so enjoyable that it doesn't even feel like a chore.
Habit #3: Wasting time on my laptop at night
It's easy, it's there, it's available and I share it with nobody. It's also permanently connected to The Biggest Time Waster out there - the world wide web. Spending time on my laptop is fine, but it shouldn't take up the majority of my night. I'd like to start doing One Thing Creative and hands-on a day. This can be anything and it doesn't have to be a masterpiece. I'd also like to spend my night doing other stuff. Like reading, for example. Or doing exercise.
Habit #4: Being lazy about socialising
The nature of my social life is that if I don't make it happen, it most likely will not. Being that my friends aren't really the types to initiate much, if I want to be social I have to put in more of an effort. Simple as that.
I'm going to check back on this to see if I'm keeping to it, but until then, maybe I'll turn off my laptop and do something else before bed. ¶ 11:50 PM 0 Comments
Habits are hard to change. They are comfortable, comforting, reassuring and easy. They are the things we fall into by default. Because we're in the habit of doing so.
I've come to realise that I have some bad habits, habits I'd like to change.
So I've decided to make it public and write about them here.
Habit #1: Eating the wrong thing at the wrong time
It doesn't feel good to eat food you don't even want at times you don't even want or appreciate it. From now on I've decided to be a more mindful eater. Not to eat just because it's there. Or I'm lazy or tired or sad or bored. Food should be treated as something you turn to when hungry. When your body needs it. Eating the wrong thing at the wrong time has resulted in me putting on weight and not fitting into my clothes properly. This must stop.
Habit #2: Not making exercise a priority
The nature of priorities is that they are first on your list. They are the most important. Right now exercise isn't even on my list. This habit kinds of ties in with the first one because when I'm exercising regularly I'm automatically more of a mindful eater and feel much better in my clothes. Making exercise a priority means making it fun and making it so enjoyable that it doesn't even feel like a chore.
Habit #3: Wasting time on my laptop at night
It's easy, it's there, it's available and I share it with nobody. It's also permanently connected to The Biggest Time Waster out there - the world wide web. Spending time on my laptop is fine, but it shouldn't take up the majority of my night. I'd like to start doing One Thing Creative and hands-on a day. This can be anything and it doesn't have to be a masterpiece. I'd also like to spend my night doing other stuff. Like reading, for example. Or doing exercise.
Habit #4: Being lazy about socialising
The nature of my social life is that if I don't make it happen, it most likely will not. Being that my friends aren't really the types to initiate much, if I want to be social I have to put in more of an effort. Simple as that.
I'm going to check back on this to see if I'm keeping to it, but until then, maybe I'll turn off my laptop and do something else before bed. ¶ 11:50 PM 0 Comments
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Top 10 reasons why I should've been born a princess:
1) I like pretty clothes a little too much
2) I'm lazy
3) I hate housework
4) I'd like to be able to afford more than I can
5) I wouldn't mind a personal servant
6) I think life should be easy
7) I have a penchant for fine food
8) I would love a personal chauffeur
9) I wouldn't mind living in a mansion
10) I've heard on occasion that I act like a princess so I might as well just be one ¶ 9:22 PM 0 Comments
2) I'm lazy
3) I hate housework
4) I'd like to be able to afford more than I can
5) I wouldn't mind a personal servant
6) I think life should be easy
7) I have a penchant for fine food
8) I would love a personal chauffeur
9) I wouldn't mind living in a mansion
10) I've heard on occasion that I act like a princess so I might as well just be one ¶ 9:22 PM 0 Comments
